Some things are hard to put behind you, put out of your mind, when your mind has stubbornly chosen to hold on to them, for reasons that may frustrate and bewilder you.

This story may be a little difficult for some of you to correlate with your own life experience. Be thankful for that. It is a burden, a heavy burden, to have some ambiguous feeling instructing your thoughts. If your life has included some trauma, you may know exactly what I am talking about. If the trauma was severe enough, and lasted long enough, you may have done what I did for 40 years: deny that the problem even existed, while painstakingly avoiding circumstances that might lead to a triggering event. Try to imagine how those two issues can exist at the same time in the same mind. That was me.

Recently I was looking through old photographs, trying to find something worth posting that I had not already put on gab. When I got all the way back to the photographs that I took with my first digital camera, a Canon S95 point-and-shoot, I immediately saw the difference in the quality of the photographs. Much of the loss of quality came from my inexperience with photography. But a great deal of it came from the fact that my camera had a tiny sensor with a somewhat inferior lens attached. Today’s photograph is one of those old photos. I spent a lot of time trying to get to look halfway decent, not because I would ever be able to make it into a great photograph, but because of what this particular scene means to me.

Danger Around The Bend

The Incident At Table Rock

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